I AM SO MOTHER FUCKING BORED I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!! My birthday is coming up and I'm gonna be 16 yay me! Nothing all that great planned though. I'm just gonna get a few dollars for my birthday and a new phone (because my dumbass broke the last one......) I'm gonna try and save up money so i can get an anime cosplay costume. I never cosplayed before so i wanna try it. I saw one i really liked.
It's from the anime 'Shuffle'
I really want a part time job and maybe i can get DeAndre another present since the last one was just a shirt i saw when my family were taking pictures at Sears. I hate the schedule we have at my school. OMG I MIGHT HAVE TO TAKE BIOLOGY ALL SEMISTER AND I HATE MY TEACHER SHE DOESN'T TEACH AND WHENEVER SHE MAKES AN ATTEMPT, SHE IS SO CONFUSING AND DOESN'T EXPLAIN THINGS WELL!!!!!!!! I FEEL SO DUMB I SHOULD BE IN CHEMISTRY ALREADY LIKE MAX IS AND HE IS DUMB AS HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST WANT OUT SOMEONE SAVE ME BEFORE I LOSE MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OR JUST KILL ME BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE!!!!! I FEEL LIKE I WANNA DROP OUT EVERY SINGLE DAY; I CAN'T TAKE THIS; IT'S TOO MUCH!!!!! AND WHAT THE FUCK! TODAY MY GYM TEACHER WAS TALKING ABOUT SCHOOL PRIDE AND SAYING THAT THE KIDS AREN'T ALL THAT BAD!!!! WHAT THE FUCK??????? AREN'T THAT BAD????? I'LL GIVE A MILLION BUCKS TO THE FIRST ONE THAT CAN GO DOWN A FIFTH OF A HALLWAY WITHOUT SEEING A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT ON THE WALLS!!!!!!!!!!! AND THEY ARE ALL DUMB AS HELL!!!!!!!! DO I LOOK MEXICAN TO ANYONE AT LINCOLN?????? IF I DO PLEASE TELL ME!!!!!!!!! THIS DUMBASS SENIOR NAMED DEANTHONY KEEPS TELLING ME THAT I'M MEXICAN BECAUSE I CAN SPEAK SPANISH BETTER THAN HIM. AND MY TEACHER THOUGHT OF A FUN GAME TO HELP US REMEMBER SOME OF OUR SPANISH BUT I CAN'T EVEN PLAY BECAUSE I'M THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS AT LEAST AN OUNCE OF KNOWLEDGE OF THIS SHIT!!!!!!!!! AND I HATE MY INTRO TO SPEECH CLASS!!!!!!! THIS OTHER DUMBASS SENIOR OR JUNIOR WHATEVER!!!!! HIS NAME IS DEWAN OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND KEEPS ASKING ME IF I WOULD GIVE HIM MY NUMBER SO I CAN SUCK HIS FUCKING DICK!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK?????????? DOESN'T ANYONE LISTEN WHEN I SAY I HAVE A BOYFRIEND??????????? AND THIS SOPHMORE NAMED DEVON WHO I THOUGHT WAS KINDA COOL CAN'T KEEP HIS FUCKING HANDS OFF ME AND TOUCHED ME IN TWO BAD SPOTS THIS WEEK!!!!!!! HE'S LUCKY I'M NICE AND I DIDN'T TELL DRE, BECAUSE I KNOW HE WOULD COME AND BEAT HIS ASS!!!!!!!!! AND MY SCHOOL GOT A NEW PRINCIPAL AND HE SAYS WE HAVE TO HAVE A TEST EVERY SINGLE FRIDAY! BY FRIDAY I AM TIRED OUT!!!!!! TODAY I AM SO EXHAUSTED AND THE ONLY THING THAT IS MAKING ME FEEL A LITTLE GOOD RIGHT NOW IS WRITING IN ALL CAPS!!!!!!! AND I AM GONNA BE SO MOTHER FUCKING PISSED IF I CAN'T GET OUT OF BIOLOGY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND MY STOMACH HURTS SO MUCH RIGHT NOW. I HAVEN'T BEEN EATING WELL LATELY AND I ALWAYS SKIP MEALS. I JUST DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!! I FEEL LIKE VOMITING RIGHT NOW.............I SHOULD DO THAT. VOMIT AFTER EATING SO I CAN STAY HOME FROM SCHOOL........MAYBE THAT WOULDN'T BE A GOOD IDEA. THE MUSIC I LIKE GIVES ME THOUGHTS OF CUTTING AND I CAN ONLY LISTEN TO MY MUSIC AT HOME. OH YEAH....... I ACCEDENTLY CUT MYSELF LAST WEEK WITH MY RAZOR....... I THOUGHT IT FELT KINDA GOOD AND SEEING MY BLOOD MADE ME FEEL A LITTLE MORE RELAXED. I DON'T KNOW WHY I FEEL RELAXED WHEN I SEE MYSELF BLEED. I'M JUST WEIRD LIKE THAT. I'M TRYING REALLY HARD NOT TO THINK ABOUT THAT STUFF THOUGH SO I AM LISTENING TO GOOD SONGS TO HELP ME STAY CALM. RIGHT NOW THE CHOBITS THEME SONG 'LET ME BE WITH YOU' IS PLAYING......... THAT MAKES ME KINDA SAD.......... IT REMINDS ME OF DEANDRE. IT SEEMS LIKE HE NEVER HAS TIME FOR ME ANYMORE.......... HE'S ALL INTO FLYFF AND NOW IT SEEMS LIKE WHATEVER I SAY MAKES HIM DEPRESSED AND THEN HE SAYS HE WANTS TO GET OFF THE PHONE AND PLAYS FLYFF MORE. IT'S VERY RARE THAT HE CALLS ME. AND WHEN HE DOES, IT'S ONLY BECAUSE I CALLED FIRST AND HE MISSED MY CALL OR I DIDN'T CALL HIM AND HE'S "CHECKING UP ON ME" WELL, LET ME THINK ABOUT HAPPY THINGS RIGHT NOW.......... WELL, THIS HAMTARO SONG MAKES ME REALLY HAPPY EVERYTIME I HEAR IT, EVEN THOUGH I HAVE ABSOLUTLY NO IDEA WHAT THEY ARE SAYING. IT'S CALLED 'HAMTARO PICCOLI CRICETI, GRANDI AVVENTURE' AND IT SOUNDS SOOOOOOO CHIWAII!!! WOW I HAVEN'T USED THAT WORD IN A LONG TIME LOL. THE ONLY WORDS I CAN REMEMBER THOUGH ARE "VIVA GLI HAM HAM FRIENDS, COSI PICCOLI, VIVACISSIMI MA DOLCISSIMI, SI NASCONDONO DOVE VOLGLIONO, PER RESTARE POI SEMPRE ACCANTO A NOI, QUESTI HAM HAM FRIENDS, SONO UNICI, CIRCONDATI DA MILLA NOVITA, FORMIDABILI INSAZIABILI, ACCAPARRANO E DOPO MANGIANO" LOL I SHOULD LOOK UP WHAT THEY SAY IN ENGLISH. NOW CHANGE THE WORLD IS PLAYING. THAT HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY FAVORITE INUYASHA SONG. GOSH I CAN'T WAIT TIL SUNDAY. OH I GUESS SINCE I AM HAPPY NOW I DON'T HAVE TO TYPE IN ALL CAPS NOW. That's better now isn't it. Now it doesn't seem like I'm shouting. Nobody better complain about my post being long because as I type it, I assume no one will read it anyway. Anyways, as i was saying, I can't wait until sunday because that is my birthday and I'm going over my mom's house and I haven't seen her since the end of June. And you know who else i get to see? Well of course you don't so i will tell you...........lol I don't even know the names..... but I get to see my mom's kitties!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!! I love kitties ^ ^ I want one so badly but DeAndre doesn't, and there is a chance that we will end up married and I'm a little sad about that...........(not the marrying part, the not having a kitty part).............well, I can't think of anything else to type........ OH YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TELL ME WHY THIS DUMBASS SENIOR THE SAME ONE THAT ALWAYS CALLS ME MEXICAN (well, now he calls me 'Japan' and sometimes says I'm Japanese........but still......) KEEPS COMING TO ME AND SAYING THAT HE'S SEEN ZACHARI AND BEATS HIM UP. AND HE SAYS ZACHARI ALWAYS CALLS HIM A "NIGGER" WHAT THE FUCK????? WELL, THERE IS TOO MUCH STUFF HAPPENING WITH ME TO TELL IT ALL. SAYONARA!!!!

i'm so bored with flyff now and i feel like i have nothing to do all summer. summer school was fun  because i was with DeAndre, even though he is a little over-protective. but that's ok! i love him always and forever! nothing can tear us apart. but now that i am on the subject of tearing a couple apart........my cousin Adrian needs to get over Valycia or however you spell her name.....and now Derrick is not allowed to come over my house ever again. i'm kinda happy about that. now he can't spend the night and eat all our food!!! and ummm.....what else....our choir "Voices or Youth" (not very creative if you ask me....) sung at Di-Tu's boyfriend-Nathen's (can't spell today xD) church and the praise dancers "Amplified through Praise" (a much better name) danced there too. they were really good; expecially my cousin Adrian. i didn't dance this time.......maybe i will find all the praise dance songs that we dance to online and practice so i can dance again. DeAndre said he liked when i danced on Easter so i guess i'll do it again...........eventually. i need to excercise anyway. you wouldn't believe how big i've gotten! i'm huge! i'm probably almost one hundred fifty pounds! oh but Dre came over yesterday ^ ^ i didn't wear black like i normally do. i wore my green shirt and mini from last year. i completely forgot about it. he really liked that.......hehe but we weren't bad...(not that much....) and my grandma and Derrick's mom hates each other i guess...that's most of what's been happening lately. oh and i have a fairly new anime music video that i made with the anime "Chobits" to the song "Bring Me To Life" i really like it. it's the best one i've made in my opinion. i guess i'll post my older anime music videos too......the first one is the anime "Inuyasha" (great anime for a first amv) and it's too the song "Because of You" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sGV-J2C8SO8

this was my very first amv. i couldn't find full episodes to download so i just downloaded other peoples inuyasha amv's and edited them for mine. surprisingly, this video is rated higher than my other, more recent ones. don't ask why there is a picture of kagome at the end. i don't know how to get that off. and i'm also too lazy to try right now.

my second anime music video is with the anime "Elfen Lied" (Max just loves this anime) to the song "Helena" and it also has some music to "Rip Out the Wings Of a Butterfly" at the end. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HXC381kL3oA

i feel this one is a bit better because i got to use a full episode even though i could only find episode one for direct download. i also have the credits at the end unlike my first one.

my most recent video is the anime "Chobits" to the song "Bring Me To Life" and i'm just gonna put it on the side over there <------- tell me which video you guys like the best. i think i'm gonna make another chobits amv since i have all the episodes. or i might make one with peach girl even though i only have about the first half. i might use a song by The Veronicas this time. they're all i've listened to for about a week. i put one of their songs where the pita ten episode used to be. here are the lyrics right here:

I'm having the day from hell
It was all going so well
Before you came
And you told me you needed space
With a kiss on the side of my face
Not again

And not to mention
The tears I shed
I shoulda kicked your
Ass instead
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

baby

Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No, ohh

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are
Anymore
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do
When it rains it pours

And not to mention
I drank too much
I'm feelin' hungover
Out of touch
I need intervention
Attention to stop this temptation to scream

Cause baby

Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No


Can't it be easier?
Can't I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad every time
Will I be mending
Another one ending once again


Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

When it all falls apart, no ohh
When it all falls apart, no ohh

Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
i don't know what else to write right now. i guess i'll let my sister on now since she was bugging me about getting on the internet...........well, sayonara! -Chi